Embrace The Calm

'Just Breathe'

I know, I know you have heard this a lot of times and it's getting frustrating well I am here to tell you that IT IS.

I am currently going through a crisis or a tough phase, and then someone tells me to "just breathe," I'm like what did you think I was doing before?

To be very honest, it gets frustrating. I have watched several videos, read several books and magazines and tried everything on the Internet to try to just be better.

I have tried to increase my self-esteem, my confidence, how I portray myself, my character, my appearance, basically everything.

And all I can say is that I'm so fucking tired(Excuse my language).It felt like I was hitting a dead end at every turn and it was exhausting.

A few months ago, I was feeling pretty lost and aimless. But then I found my purpose, and it was like a weight lifted off my shoulders. Life started feeling more colorful and exciting, like every day was a new adventure waiting to happen. I finally had a sense of direction and a reason to keep going, even when things got tough. It was like a spark had been lit inside me.

Motivational quotes and videos did help but they only took me so far because I just spent most of my time slouching away on my couch or bed watching them rather than putting them into practice.

One day i randomly decided that i needed to take more action beyond just watching and reading quotes and videos.I decided that before my parents die, I want them to enjoy life.To actually experience the things the world has to offer.So I guess that can be considered as my motivational quote and mostly because I didn't want to end up begging with my children suffering.

With all this decided,I took up a skill which was editing. I started looking for Jobs on Upwork and Fiverr,I started blogging,and some other things that give me purpose and keep me busy.

Regarding my confidence amd how self-conscious i was,I literally just stopped caring about what people had to say if they were not paying my bills or feeding me.

I just developed a 'if you're not feeding me,you don't have a say in my life' mindset.

You can look for all the motivational videos and quotes in the world but I promise you if you aren't willing to just get up and start,it won't ever work out for you.

My life is already short so there is no way I am going to spend my short life thinking about what someone has to say about me or being so self-conscious when In reality they don't even care.


Remember, it's all in your head. You might be overthinking things and worrying about interactions that others don't even remember. Keep this in mind: "You can only regret what you didn't do when you had the chance. Either you fail or win, but you can't regret what's already been done."(Actually you can regret what's already been done but that's not the point)So make the most of every opportunity, take risks, and don't be afraid of failure.

My journey,although not over,has taught me that simply 'breathing' isn't enough. We need to take action,find our purpose and pursue our passions.It's okay to struggle but it's not okay to give up.

And
Please stop telling me to 'Just Breathe'.I know what I need to do to stay alive.